cash money vinyl, narrow bed, cloudy days, the thoughts don’t take over my head
life is slow and fast but i never want it to stop, even when i felt like i was drowning in my own sorrow.
i am happy now. happy is not over joyed with big smiles and perfect clear thoughts
it’s not wanting to hide, wanting to turn your mind off and feel empty, wanting to feel pain to feel alive, hating yourself for not doing and being the person you were supposed to be.
it’s living. fresh starts and new people. a mind that doesn’t race with sadness 24/7. its forgetting about the past.
i want to forget. forgetting is good when you’re forgetting bad memories. you’re nothing but a bad memory.
never live for someone else. live for yourself.
i am okay, finally